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Shit.
Ive been alienated from all my friends and am basically on house arrest under constant watch (unable to use my phone without being questioned.) and am unable to take part in some of the things that gave me joy (e.g. smoking a joint on a friday night). Im allowed out to work my 60 hour weeks though.
Meanwhile she has a great social life, goes out / uses her phone constantly, has been caught cheating twice with the same guy & will randomly stop all forms of housework and explode at me for “doing nothing” after a 15 hour shift. This weekend, She had me driving all weekend and i cooked 4 days in a row, asked her what she was doing for dinner and got told to fuck off.
I found out i had a brother/sister from my dads side (met him once aged 12, dead now) and shortly after meeting them for the first time went behind my back and began begging them for money ( ?!?! we didnt need it) and they promptly dropped all contact with me. That was fun.
Oh and the sex is probably on average every 6-8 weeks, not that i care much anymore.
Ive been reduced to working and online gaming, she has totally removed my independence and masculinity. I think the only reason i stick around is because she has systematically destroyed me as a person and its just easier this way, i honestly wouldn’t know how to escape the deep roots she has implanted on me.
Its ok though, i enjoy gaming i guess.
EDIT:
Thanks for the overwhelming amount of support / replies you are all posting, i kind of just posted this to vent after a long long time, I’ve got a lot to think about. I’ve always known our relationship wasn’t normal or healthy and i won’t pretend to be a saint, two sides to a coin. But really ive wanted out for a long time and ive tried and failed so many times, im trapped and i need to escape i realise that now
EDIT2:
I’ll stop replying to people now, thanks again for all the messages.
